Letting people in or
letting them get close to the point of seeing you for who you really are, is
one of the hardest things ever. What if they get close enough to see your
unhealed wounds? What if they can’t handle your not so beautiful elements? What
if they are more in love with the “you” they thought they knew from afar? And
worst of all, what if they bring to light the things you hated about yourself
and thought you had dealt with?
Their closeness and
their inability to handle the burden of your imperfection can be absolutely
disheartening and condemning, leaving you hopeless.
A few years ago I went
into a relationship with Someone, and based on my numerous interactions with
people I instinctively held back. I wasn’t going to risk Him seeing my
imperfections, NO WAY! So he could hurt me like the rest? No way! But for the
first time in my life I was absolutely wrong. Over and again he asked me to
open up and I would hide because He was flawless. Why would someone so perfect
stay after seeing me for me? After all, everyone I had thought could handle my
transparency couldn’t even when they tried, so why would He?
I heard once about a lady who had a similar
(much more intense and literal) experience. (John 8:3-11 MSG):
The religion scholars led
in a woman who had been caught in the act of adultery. They stood her in plain
sight of everyone and said, “Teacher, this woman was caught red-handed in the
act of adultery. Moses in the law gives orders to stone such persons. What do
you say?”…Jesus bent down and wrote something with his finger in the dirt. They
kept at him, badgering. He straightened up and said, “The sinless one among
you, go first: Throw the stone.” Bending down again he wrote some more in the
dirt. Hearing that they walked away, one after another beginning with the
oldest. The woman was left alone. Jesus stood and spoke to her “Woman where are
they? Does no one condemn you?” “No one Master.” “Neither do I. Go your way
from now on do not sin.”
AMAZING RIGHT?
Also with Simon Peter
Jesus foresaw his repeated denial of Him (John 13:38), but instead of
condemning him helped him back up and gave him responsibility over what He
cherished most on earth (John 21:15-17), He helped him up and gave him a clean
slate.
He has said to me over
and again:
I
took you from the ends of the earth. from its farthest corners I called you, I
said ‘You are my servant, I have chosen you and have not rejected you: So do
not fear for I am with you; do not be dismayed for I am your God. I will
strengthen you and help you. I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’
(Isaiah 41:9&10).
Jesus will never
condemn you, He knows that you see your mess and that you have struggled in
vain to clean it up. He won’t beat you up about how you’ve failed to change
over and again, instead if you allow Him, He will help you, clean you up, hold
your hands and give you the power to be right. I can’t help but be in love with
Him, He is absolutely amazing!
*Singing* Mercy said no
I’m not gonna let you go, I’m not gonna let you slip away, you don’t have to be
afraid…(Mercy Said No by Cece Winans).
As always Be Spekky...Be Spectacular!!!
